Last night my wife and I went out to eat at the local sushi place we usually frequent. We have not been there for a while and I think they where pissed off at us for not being there. The last time I went there I think I told them that we had been going to another sushi place which looking back seems like not a great idea. The food was great and Shannon and I didn’t each too much. I have been starting to get carbohydrates back into my diet and yesterday I decided to just start eating bread without worrying about it.
Yesterday, during our walk we where really hungry. We walked kinda late and had not eaten anything up to that point. On the way back we saw the scone shop that is open down the street from our house and decided to check it out. It looked good and smelled even better when we went inside. They server Temple coffee and that’s usually pretty good so I ordered a cup. We also broke down and bought a couple “hand-pies” for lunch and also a maple and bacon scone. After not having bread for a long time (months) it was nice to have a little and it tasted great.
So we had the scone for dessert after the sushi dinner and I enjoyed it very much. After not having any sweets for a very time you discover two things; how much you like sweets and how dangerous they can be. I must have ate the scone too fast because, for the first time in a long time I got heartburn.
I’m really not going to worry about the carbs any longer. I think that it is important to have them in moderation (like not having too many beers) but not to ‘force’ them out of your life. I do, however feel that because of the massive amount of advertising and the basic ‘forcing’ upon us of carb rich foods as well as the fact that carbohydrates can become addicting to many people; that I should still be very weary about eating too many and having it effect my life.
I know that if I can eat the sweets and cakes in moderation, then I will have truly mastered the urge and the desire. Just removing it from your life is not enough, it is there to test you. If you never take the test then you never have a chance to pass. The right way is to neither indulge or abstain completely but to control and moderate the intake to best suit you. That is where the real strength comes in.
Even though I know moderation is the right way, it still takes steps to reach the goal. Removing carbs and going into full keto for many months was the first test. The practice of absence helped me to recognize the amount of influence it had on my life. It is hard to realize fully just how much what you eat effects your mood and personality. With the amount of carbohydrates people take in in this country it is no wonder why there is such a prevalence of anxiety and depression. Instead of subscribing patience anti-depression medicines right off the bat, doctors should be asking their patience what they have been eating. I guarantee that in many cases a simple change of the diet would be just as effective and would cost the patient much less in the long run. Instead, the pharmacies and drug companies make so much money and enslave the people onto horrible drugs!
If we can just maintain self-control then we will never need to be controlled by others. The only way to really be free is to find the freedom in yourself. Unfortunately for some, this requires work and dedication and they are unable to accomplish this task. The ones who cannot control themselves cause the effect of the creation of systems of control that do the work for them but also reap the reward of the work. This is the mythology of the vampire. There is no real blood involved. Blood is a metaphor for energy, life, work. It is all a story of cause and effect.