‘5 of Wands’ under ‘The Tower’

Under The Tower I seem to be getting a lot of this card, the Five of Wands telling me that this is a time of strife and struggle. There is also something to be said about “playing the game” rather than “playing to win”.

In the past, I’ve always been of the mind that it is “all or nothing”. If I don’t see a way to win, I attempt to negate the game itself. All games are a “sham” in a way, but it is not good to abandon the game all together just because you see/feel that there is no way to win. Only a poor loser tries to flip the entire table if he/she is losing. The right way to get through a loss is to congratulate the winner and prepare for the next round, the next battle. If you lose a battle and then flip the table, you will never win.

Even if you are sure to lose, there is no need to simply “give up”. Play the game with detachment from winning and focus on learning and growth. Focus on the things you can’t lose which are more important than winning itself; like experience. There is never a real win or loss. Don’t fool yourself and think that a loss is somehow fatal. You always have a good chance to play again and eventually you are sure to find success. In-fact, the longer it takes, the more powerful the “win” will be.

If an argument or challenge comes your way do not rashly fall into the game. Sit back for a second and find the best path for both parties involved. That often requires that you have fortitude in your own strength and a firm grasp/understanding of the rules. Know your place in the battle and you may just find the key without even fighting.

Two of Wands

Today I received the “Two of Wands” under “The Tower”. Just before getting “The Tower” I received this card on 8/11 which was my wife’s birthday. It was also the day that Jupiter goes direct in Sagittarius as well as Uranus going retrograde. Right now, there is a serious need for looking out on our future and what we need to do to get there. “The Tower” is a card I’ve been getting lately and it tells me to “be careful” as well as that “the mighty have fallen”. The mighty may be in the external world but in a very real and more important way it is the ego inside of me.

Basically, “keep your eyes on the ball” and “don’t block yourself”. It is amazing to realize just how much we sabotage ourselves out of fear. Often we never even get a chance to start because we have convinced ourselves that it is “too hard” or impossible.

In the past, I often thought that if I started to be happy, I would die. Like me having a happy life was somehow fatal. Now, I understand what I thought was not from me but was, in a very big way, put into me by my family. There are many, many people across the world who are ‘trapped’ in their ‘local’. I should write more on ‘localization’ but it is basically having a narrow view. The “Two of Wands” is about the “bigger view” that may remove you from the stuck position you may think you are in.

There is a great secret: Every maze is navigable no matter how complicated or “impossible” it may seem through a single method. Touch one hand to the wall and follow the wall all the way without stopping. Then you will find the exit (or the entrance) without even having to think about it. Heck you could do it with your eyes closed! That is the secret of the left/right hand paths.

Om Namah Shivaya!

The Tower

This is not my favorite card, but it is one that is very powerful and honestly it is at times very needed. In the most simplistic of terms it is “release”. The release of what?

When a spring is pushed down on, it stores a certain amount of energy within it as tension. When the “weight” is removed, the pent up energy is released and the tension is removed. At the same time, the spring, because of its built up energy, is able to jump and fly around the room possibly causing havoc. Just like a spring, it is not always the case that it will result in havoc, especially if you understand the amount of pressure that has been built up.

“The Tower” is the natural change that cannot be stopped. The crown is the ego who thought it was above the laws of nature. False ego and pride are the wrong perceptive that must be toppled. The ego, because of its miss-perception creates disaster by its misuse of natural energy for its own ends. It creates the havoc by resistance of the inevitable. The Tower shows people falling from a lofty place. The false position. Instead of grasping onto a false security and sense of pride, it is far better to simply work with the universe and submit to its correct and incorruptible will.

In a way, The Tower is the removal of the ego from its “throne”. It is the victory of time over all, even the demi-gods. If done right, it is an opportunity for great insight and revelation.

Holding yourself back

Today’s card: Eight of Swords

For the chariot card, I mentioned that the energy was all about not being afraid to move forward, well this card is all about confronting that fear. The first thing that comes to mind is a quote by the Butthole Surfers: “It is better to regret something you did, than something you didn’t do.” Basically, if you think of things the right way, it is always better to take action and move while you are learning and progressing, rather than standing in one place and retarding your growth. Movement through life is key, otherwise you are wasting your here on this earth.

In the past I have been guilty many times of not moving; I was scared to put myself out there. I always thought of it through the analogy of floating down a river:

I am going down the river in a raft and I can hear around the river bend what sounds like a waterfall. I am afraid to go any farther, and out of fear I grab onto a branch on the side of the river and hold on. The current is moving fast and it takes a lot of effort to hold on and not get swept away by the current. Other people are floating by, and some of them I yell out to, warning them of the danger of going down the river. There are some who are also scared and they join me in holding onto a branch or whatever they can get a hold of on the side of the river. I am able to hold on for a very ling time, but eventually I start to grow tired so I have to let go. After I do, the river takes me around the dreaded bend and I come to find out there was no waterfall but simply a small rapids that I easily navigate. Farther down the river I discover that the water and surrounding landscape is calm and serene. There was more to fear about just sitting there, more danger holding on then there was in just letting go.

It does not seem like it when you are holding on, but it is harder to hold on and resist the current, to stay in one place, than it is to just face the fear and go with the flow. When you get stuck in once place, whether it is voluntary or by circumstances seemingly beyond your control, it can make you feel overwhelmed and unsure about yourself and your abilities. This, in turn will affect everything that you do. It makes everything feel like a chore, a burden to escape from. This is because all of your energy is being spent just trying to hold on. Once you let go, there is no need to feel that way anymore because all of your energy becomes available to you once again. The burden of holding on and fighting the current lifts from you and you are able to act without feeling like there is something constantly holding you back.

Events start to unfold and present opportunities to you. Using the power of discernment we are able to figure out the right path down the river. You are able to do the work to navigate the river of life without the burden of holding yourself back. Once you are moving all things become possible for you. There are many ways to hold on: Drugs, drinking, dead end jobs, through supposed friends, lovers who are not right but to which you cling. There are many ways to hold on, but the catalyst for all inaction is always the same: FEAR. Put the fear away and stop holding yourself back! Quickly you will discover that the river current is your friend and not an enemy.

The Journey

For today’s card I received the ‘Eight of Cups’. At first I don’t know what to make of this card. I have been getting it often so there has to be some sort of deeper meaning than the negative sounding words of “material gain abandoned”. Overall this seems to be a card of moving on.

Even if you have worked for a lot and have gained much, there comes a time when you must let it all go and just move on. This card can represent both external and internal change, but I see it’s message personally as pointing more toward the internal.

The night before last, I had a dream that I was fighting with myself (yes, physically in a fight with myself!) over something that had to do with my old job which was a dead-end job in an office where I was not happy. In the dream I was able to overcome myself and gain the upper-hand, but when I woke up I knew that this was some sort of sign that I needed to move on past this ‘old’ life and into my new one. This dream reflected an internal struggle that I was having on a sub-conscious level; between the old self and the new self that I was trying to become.

It is not easy to move forward sometimes, even if you really want to because your body and more importantly, your mind, will still be ‘stuck’ so to speak in the old patterns that your sub-conscious is still acting out. The journey is especially hard to obtain when it’s value is high or when the searching and direction being sought is of a spiritual nature. Just imagine how hard it is to abandon something physical that you have worked hard on, not think about how this is done on a massive, all encompassing scale when you proceed on a spiritual quest. Getting this card at a point in life when I am trying to move forward and beyond the old is actually a good sign.

I see this card as being a voluntary version of the forced energy of change found in ‘The Tower’. With the tower, material things are taken away from you in a cataclysm, whereas with the eight of cups, the energy is solemn but the ‘loss’ is voluntary. Nothing is forcing this man to leave his work behind. This is a more powerful card spiritually because it shows a willingness to accept material losses in order to continue on a spiritual journey. There is a recognition here that the material has little value when it is compared with the value of the spiritual. When the mind concerns itself with spiritual matters, the material world melts away and one sees that there was nothing there of value to begin with. The material value is just an illusion.

This card also shows that this is just the beginning of the journey. Often, it is easy for me to get caught up in the day to day dealings and to imagine to myself that I am progressing faster than I really am, and that I have gone farther than I really have. This card is much like ‘The Fool’ in this case, just starting to commence the journey whereas a card like ‘The World’ or a number 10 card would show the nearing towards, or the straight completion of a journey.

It is important to keep in mind that I am not taking any shortcuts because in the end they will get you nowhere. The journey I am on is a long one and I am merely at the mercy of the goal of the universe. Nothing more nothing less. I am not a part of the whole, but the whole itself. All things shall be love to me, but it will take time to get to the truth, to gain wisdom out of knowledge. The last thing to remind myself is not to give up hope. Do not abandon your progress in spiritual matters, but leave behind all of the material boons. Do not lose hope for in time all goals are certain to be reached!

The Star

Today’s card is The Star – A very powerful and important card that shows hope for the future and gives inspiration for the present. This time in my life is full of this awaiting future expansion and blessings but it is also a time of fear for me because the future is not certain.

There are many people in this world who put security at the top most desire but those people never get to see their true self because of their fear of the unknown. For me, it is always important to not become complacent and to keep moving. Over the years, working at the office I was working at provided me with a secure income and allowed me to become lazy. I was stagnant for many of those years and I wasted a lot of time sitting still, when I could have been moving forward with my life. No one/nothing is to blame for this but me, myself and I.

Now days, I have become less afraid of taking leaps into the unknown, but I am still, from time to time, afraid to move forward. The unknown is just such a monster if you let it become that. The longer you wait, the more menacing the fear becomes. But that monster can be eliminated in an instance if you want it to for it is nothing but yourself. Only you can hold yourself back.

The Star is a card that shows one foot in the world and the other foot in another. That is because this card shows the method of great blessings being given to this world, the practical, shown by the foot on the earth. It also represents inspiration, the source of which comes from the sub-conscious mind shown by the foot in the water.

The blessings are being poured into both worlds, but often we can only see one or the other at one time. This card shows us both simultaneously and also explains through its imagery the interaction between these two worlds when things are harmonious.

A good illustration of the parallels between these two worlds is shown in the stars themselves. When it is day time, everything is bright and illuminated but the stars are not able to be seen. On the other hand when darkness falls, the world appears dark and scary; monsters come out during the night time. Even though the world becomes a scary place, when you look up you see the stars are shining (along with the moon). So this shows a parallel in that when we look inside, things may be dark and scary, but only by looking within can we connect with the universal, whereas when we look to the outside world, it may be comforting, but by doing so we loose part of our connection to the whole.

The star card shows us that the blessings flow into both worlds, the inside world and the external world. This flow comes not from either of these worlds but from a third place; the true self. The Atman is this true self, the perceiver of both worlds. This is the pure, universal intelligence that is above all things.

Freedom

Ace of Swords! Getting this card for today tells me that I am moving forward on my path, physically as well as mentally and spiritually through the actions I perform in this world. Actually it is not just this card, but many other things in my life that are happening right now that lead me to this conclusion. The Ace of Swords (Ace of Spades!, Ace of Spades! – See _Motorhead_) is merely a sign that I am on the right track and I appreciate the message.

There is a little bit of a catch twenty-two in that action binds you to this world, but at the same time action – the same action that binds effect to cause, can also be used to separate the cause from the effect. In-fact, this action is required for this separation to occur! This may seem strange, but it actually makes sense if you are looking at things from a truthful and ultimate perspective.

There is one action that leads to total freedom from all other action, namely the act of liberation. That is a great secrete of this world: this is the chance to re-unite with the Almighty One. As a human on this planet, nothing else is able to do this except for us in this life. That is why this world is so important; it is the only chance to be re-united with the Creator.

All of the plants and the animals. All of the trees and the rocks. All of the laws of physics, the shining of the Sun, the reflection of the Moon. All of the stars in the sky, all of the people on this planet. All of the things that exist are all here to support and flow through and towards this single and ultimate goal. To realize union with the divine.

This union happens very rarely, or so it seems. But it is sure to happen to every single person on this planet, both past, present, future and beyond. This is very sure to me and it is a fact that eventually, although actually just a blink of an eye, everything will be re-united with the Almighty One. This is sure because, in reality, we are already united with it. We are the Creator. For there is nothing but the Creator. The very idea that we are separate from it is a mere hallucination.

This hallucination is caused by ignorance of the truth. The ignorance from the truth is what distances us from this realization and from it comes all we see on this planet. Everything we experience in our lives, good or bad comes from this ignorance. The Hindus call this ignorance ‘Maya’, the great magic trick. We are all born into this world through Maya and we are removed from this world through wisdom. By learning to control ourselves, we learn to control the Maya, and eventually we escape the illusion and discover the truth.

Everything is already known to us, we have merely hidden it from ourselves. We must put in the WORK to un-cover that which we have covered. What a glorious world this is when we discover the truth. When we discover that there is no right or wrong, no good or evil, because we see that those things are relative to each other and rely on each other. There is a great bliss that comes from true and utter freedom. There is a great peace that arrives when we understand our true position in this world. Go out and do action not for yourself, not for this world, but for God alone do everything!

The Chariot

The Chariot

Today’s card is The Chariot. This is one of my favorite cards in the deck, second only to the High Priestess which is my favorite. The symbolism of The Chariot is very interesting to me and really represents this time of my life in a positive way.

This is a card of balance and the actionable result of the balance. If you take a card like The Lovers then you can see the progression of this energy. The Lovers are the opposite of the Devil which represents lust in contrast to love. One is master over the other. In The Lovers, the union is symbolized by a glowing angelic figure. The result of their love. The Chariot shows this same energy, but it is not displaying the result of the love, but the ACTION of the love.

The Chariot driver is like the mind and the horses are the senses. At least this is a most basic way to look at the situation presented. There is much power in the horses, a symbol we still use to this day with engines and cars. If the horses are not under control through discernment then their energies are dangerous and they can cause harm. If the driver is in control of the sense, then the power becomes his power and he is a king. It all depends on what is using what.

Coming back to The Lovers and the Devil cards they display this perfectly. In the lovers, the man is looking at the woman and she is looking at the angel. The angel is looking down at her and is sending blessings and shining light back represented by the hand gesture of giving. Here we see a completion of the circuit. Love is being used for what the power of love is there for. To make the light-bulb shine. By practicing love we complete the circuit and the light turns on.

On the Devil card we see a very different state of affairs. Here, the man and the woman are chained to the beast. This is symbolizing the fact that the senses are in control over the man and woman. They are chained to their own desires and their own impulses. Here the man is looking at the woman but the woman is looking away. The devil seems to be looking directly at you and there is no completion of anything, there is simply a glowing stare that wants more, more, more!

So in one case we see love as being a positive and beautiful thing; a thing that shines light and brings harmony through unification. On the other hand we see the senses using the man instead of the man using his senses. It is similar to smoking cigarettes. At first you find it repulsive, but if you do it a little you find at first a little pleasure and then more pleasure. Pretty soon you are back to where you started and the cigarettes bring you no pleasure but you still have to smoke them. At that point the cigarettes stop being smoked and start smoking you.

The Chariot shows the middle ground between the results of The Lovers and the Devil cards. Through discrimination of good and bad, the driver can steer the senses one direction or the other and cover the distance to the goal. Otherwise, it is like the drivers is asleep at the reins and the horses are running any direction without any sense or reasoning. They may run over others or lead the chariot over a cliff with the driver along for the ride.

The horses have names as well. One is mercy and compassion and the other is severity and harsh punishment. These two forces are also shown in many symbols, most specifically the Yin and Yang. These two forces are controlled through discretion which is very powerful. Some situations require kindness and compassion. Others absolutely require you to be appalled and repulsed. If you can tell the difference between these two paths, then you can always be sure that you are traveling in the right direction.

The Chariot shows these two forces under control, in their proper amounts at the proper times. This is the middle ground that can lead in two directions. Either to bondage or freedom. Into ignorance or knowledge. From sleeping into being awake. The Chariot shows us the way to controlling ourselves and therefor discover ourselves. If a canine is a wolf it will attack you and kill you without even thinking. If man has shown love to a canine for many years, overtime the wolf understands the human and the human the wolf. The wolf ceases to be a wolf and turn into what has been called “man’s best friend”. At this point the once wolf that would kill a man without a second thought becomes a creature that would give it’s life for its master. That is the great power of love and it is very real.

Let us make our natures like the trustworthy “man’s best friend” and not like the savage wolf. Let us all be friends to all people and lovers of all things. For that is the nature of one who is in control of their senses. This is the nature of the entire universe!

Card for the day: 5 of Wands

5 of Wands
5 of Wands

Over the past couple years I have gotten in the habit of drawing a tarot card for each day. This has given me a ‘flavor’ for the day, a theme and has been working well for me.

There is something about today’s card that I have not noticed before. I have gotten this card many times but have never realized that meaning. “Change through courage” is the last upright meaning of the card according to my phone’s interpretation. All of the other times I have gotten this card I have never noticed this meaning; or, if I have, its meaning had not had the same effect on me as it had this morning.

The card itself is about competition and struggle, but it is also about “agility”. That has always perplexed me. It is almost as if the men/boys shown on the card face are engaging not in a war or fight, but in training or sparing. There is no blood, they appear to be friends and are, in a way, rejoicing. The imagery brings the word ‘college’ to mind for me. Representing such as the development of agility through sparing, debating, and wrestling with thoughts and ideas.

The more in-depth meaning states: “This card represents the struggle to gain material security, which is only achieved through dedication. Courage is needed, as well as the ability to think on your feet. Develop new ways of thinking ahead to attain an advantage. Maintain your balance and equilibrium, and do not lose sight of your goal.”

Again this is very indicative of the college mindset. Another interesting thing about this card is the first line of its reversed meaning: “This card reversed warns that the battle you are in is an illusion.” The card appears to me to be saying that this learning is needed but that this is not the “real” world, as they used to tell me back in high school: “You think it’s bad here; just wait until you get out in the ‘real world’.”

I can relate this somewhat to my place in life right now. Between jobs, the only thing that I can actively do at this time is to learn, to expand my horizons and soak up as many different experiences as possible. This is the learning part of the equation.

I have the ability to map out my chosen route. To find every path through the forest in order to find the most suitable and effective path for me. I have been practicing the energy of this card over the past couple months and I am starting to find my foothold. This leads me to my blogging, my twitch streaming and soon to my YouTube creations.

One must build up the state of mind to accomplish before one can dedicate oneself to the accomplishment!